My beautiful mom, I wish so much that every day I could just call you and ask you how your day was. I imagine your Heaven is full of love, happiness, and all the Bingo you can play. I hope every jackpot is a winner, just for you. I sometimes feel very alone in the world, but I know that no matter what, I'm not. I know you're near me all the time. It's just not the same not to see your brown eyes, your bright smile, and to hear your laugh. I miss watching your feet move when you heard a song that you like. I miss your cooking. When I pass, I hope you have a breakfast casserole waiting for me. Then, some of your dirt cake. We can all sit around the table and eat to our hearts content! (Hopefully calories aren't a thing up there, ha.) I hope you're proud of me, I hope that you know I've tried to be a good person so I WILL see you when God decides to come get me. I want to be in the Garden of Light with you and the others we have lost. I hope you're proud of me for having my first house (and probably last) and the fact that I've learned to do so much on my own. You made me strong mom, and you always let me know that no matter what anyone thinks, I am a great person. You know how hard it is for me, and you put up with a lot from me. I don't always feel that way, but I can still hear your reassuring voice telling me that you're so proud of me.I hope you've forgiven me. I hope you're at peace with no leftover earthly worries. You were an angel even before you got your wings. My beautiful mom, I love you. I hope somehow you can read this from Heaven. We miss you every hour of every day. But mom, we couldn't bear to see you so sick. As you always told us, "God won't put you through something you can't handle." That is so very true. You had to go, but we see each other again. I didn't think 2 years ago that I would be here without you. I didn't think I could live my life. And sometimes, it is a huge struggle. But God has given me the strength and understanding to accept that you had to go. You're too good for this planet anyway. I am sending kisses up to you, I hope you catch them. Give a few to the brothers for me. Sleep tight mom, and know that you're still very much alive in our hearts and souls. My goodness, I miss you. I love you, I long for your arms around me. But I'm alright, you taught me how to go on when it seems next to impossible. Have a great anniversary of getting your wings, I bet they're gorgeous. Love you tremendously. Forever. Amanda